Friday, December 17, 2010

Dum Dum Dum Dum!


I am so excited about tomorrow's weigh-in. I really need to break this damn 190. It only took me a minute to break 203, a week actually...and now it is time to say ciao to 190 for good.

I've had this cold so I know that I've lost, simply because I don't have an appetite. I'm concerned because I just ate dinner and I don't want it sitting on me when I hit the scale.

Gone are the days when I could just pop a laxitive (oh you didn't know)so I really just have to hope that things work out. I just had one shrimp egg foo young patty and a half cup of brown rice. The meal was about 8pts. I'll give it 10pts, for the two pieces of roast pork that I stole from my son's plate.

I guess this is it. If you see a blog post tomorrow, it means that I beat 190...if not, look for me dangling off the GWB. Not really. Maybe....

It's been so long I don't remember my line.....

I love me for losing, I'm on my way....(?)


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Nearly 13 Down

Alright. So when we last spoke, I told you that I was going to join Weight Watchers.
I did. Ta-dah! As you can see by the title of this blog, I've lost nearly 13lbs in three weeks. The first week I lost 8+ (the + means ounces, I am not trying to dig out the little book), 2nd week 2+, and last week 1+. I am not thrilled that the losing slowed down, but I am still losing and doing way better than before. At least with WW, I see a change each week.

I look forward to Saturdays so much now. Lately, all I have to look forward to is WW on Saturday. I'd love to take this conversation to LolaTuesday, but I can't even. I can tell you that the time is RIGHT for losing weight. It really is. My photo shoot is next month, and though I'm not looking forward to it, I'm looking forward to seeing the final product. I have no real need for boudoir pics. What am I supposed to do with them? LOL! I am going to hang them all over my room and kitchen for inspiration. Maybe I will be able to post the least scandalous on Facebook.

Alright, I have to go visit LolaTuesday. My Dear Readers are tired of my shit.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way,


Monday, November 15, 2010

What better day than today to blog? I'm at jury duty and still fat. There is a humorless, expression-free loser in the front making announcements. Whatever. I'm going to start weight watchers on Saturday. I'm not gaining or losing. My life is at a standstill. Actually it might be moving extra fast and I'm racing to catch up. The drone in the front is glaring at me, I better give him a little attention. I'm sure that I will be back soon. Lol! The drone just made a funny about non-English speakers. That was kind of funny, drone. Tee-hee.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Day 48 Don't Start With Me!


I know, I know...where have I been? Have I been eating correctly? How much have I lost? What ever happened to the No Joke? WTH MAN!!??

I'm really sorry. I'm sorry for me. I'm sorry for you. However....

Here is the true story, no bull. The last time we spoke was Sept. 12. I know that I am supposed to be here everyday, every other day at least. I'm sorry that I let you down. I can tell you that I let myself down first and you were casualities of my own war. I am sorry.

I started a new career and I was losing sleep and there was so much going on that has nothing to do with you...but with me. Weight watching and calorie busting is not the move when there is so much more going on. I don't know what I've gained or lost. I have not been on the scale. I don't think that I've lost or gained.

It is October and I'm back! I appreciate you all for waiting for me and for busting my chops when you got the chance. I need to probably go back and read a few blogs to see where we left off, but tonight is not the night for that. It is already 11pm and one of the Octomises (October Promises) is to be in bed by 10pm.

I'll tell you what's up:

I am starting a Centrum Vitamin tonight.
I am drinking Sleepytime Tea to help with my insomnia.
I am restarting Fat Smash tomorrow to catch up.
I am going to start walking tomorrow for 30min in the morning and hitting the No Joke at night.
I am going to start journaling in my personal notebook again for my peace.
I am going to start getting to bed at 10pm.

Tomorrow I am eating the following so far..remember I told you that Fat Smash is best planned early:

V8 Fruit/Veggie Fusion (more info tomorrow)
3/4 cup of Chocolate Cheerios.
Small salad composed of baby spinach, tomatoes, and sugar snap peas.

I know that dinner has to be beans and veggies, but I have not decided.

I have to go to bed. It's 11:04pm.

Do I even remember my closing?

I love me for losing. I'm on my way.


Sunday, September 12, 2010

Day 28: Thank God Tomorrow is Monday


I always feel a little excited about Mondays. In every dieter's mind, that is the new beginning. Yaaaaa Monday!

Ok. Yesterday: one pancake, two slices of cheese, tuna w/avocado in a spinach wrap, thin crust pizza topped with black olives, portobello mushrooms and extra cheese, a hefty shot of hennessey, and orange juice.

Today: Mangu (mashed plantains), fried cheese, scrambled eggs, butternut squash soup, two slices of toast, three little avocado wedges, and mimosas.

That is some light eating for an entire weekend. Geez I feel like I am forgetting something.


Tomorrow I have to pump up the pace. I am not losing fast enough and while I don't expect to race through this, January is a big month for me and I really, really, truly need to knock out at least 20 by then.

I'm strongly contemplating going hard with Dr. Ian's Extreme Fat Smash. It has worked for me before. For those of you unaware, Dr. Ian is a VH1 personality and also, wait...I will check the sec.

He is a diet expert from Celebrity Fit Club, a medical contributor to The View, a contributing editor for Men's Health and the spokesman for the 50 Million Pound Challenge. I am one of the couch potatoes that purchased his book, Extreme Fat Smash Diet.

Apparently you can lose 12 pounds in 3 weeks. Is it possible? Of course. I am going to try to do it again. I've done it a few times before. I never did the whole three weeks, so I didn't lose the 12. I did see results in a week's time.

I don't know if you want me to go into a whole Fat Smash mode, but I'm not using my blog to put more $$ in Dr. Ian's pocket. If you are interested really, I will blog about it. It is unecessary for you to buy the book. In fact, a good portion of you are my friends, so you can actually borrow the book.

On Fat Smash, you get four meals a day and two snacks. The meals are very precise. My biggest issue is the limited alcohol and coffee. One stinking 8oz cup of coffee for the day and two measly 6oz glasses of wine a week. What the hell? Clearly he wants me to pick up a new vice like smoking.

You are also supposed to exercise. I do that already, so I don't really need to read that part. The coolest thing and uncoolest thing is that I am really good at planning my meals the night before. The reason that is uncool is because it truly knocks the spontanetity out of eating. If I see results, and I mean quick ones, then I will feel better.

I will tell you this: my huge thermos of coffee is NOT changing. I probably won't be drinking wine this week at least at home, because I didn't buy any.

I'm getting sleepy, that's good news because I should be at this point.

I'm going to go put together tomorrow's food....let me give you a looksie. I don't know if I will be back on tomorrow..Mondays, despite being a day that I look forward to are remarkably long.

Meal 1: one egg and one piece of fruit (no banana, pineapple or watermelon) I may cut up a cantalope.

Meal 2: cup of sliced fruit (I have a can in the cabinet)

Meal 3: small salad (I guess spinach, that's all I have)

Meal 4: 1/2 cup of beans and two servings of veggies

Now the snacks...I LOVE SNACKS, BECAUSE THEY MAKE ME FEEL SPECIAL....there is a whole snack section on pages 130-133.

I'm going for the 6 wheat thins with 2 teaspoons of peanut butter and 1/2 small avocado.


If I recall, you wake up, have a snack, workout for 30min, have breakfast, and then a meal every three hours (with the second snack between meals #3 and #4, and another workout at the end of the day.

I did so well blogging this all out, I might have to email myself.

I'm really tired ya later.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way.


Friday, September 10, 2010

Day 26: Can I really rattle off ALL that I ate?


Sorry you think I forgot about you, I didn't. It has been a very hectic few days. Wednesday I went back to work, Thursday was our 3rd anniversary and today...well I'm here today, so stop yer bitchin!

Day 24: yogurt, toasted bagel flat, butternut squash soup, wheat thins, almonds, veggie egg foo young, rice, two dumplings, and wine.
Day 25: a turkey and pepper jack cheese wrap w/lettuce, tomatoes and mustard, seltzer, 1/2 grilled cheese, fries, fried pickles, beer and wineless wine.
Whew, Day 26: wheat thins and hummus, chicken-free hot wings in a spinach wrap, chicken burrito, black beans and rice, two sweet plantains, three fries, wine, and a margarita straight up, leave the rocks at the shore.

Its been an exciting three days. Let me tell you about the fried pickles. I don't want to pretend that I am the first person in the world to have fried pickles, when in fact, I too, saw the episode of Jersey Shore when Snookie had fried pickles. They changed her life. They did not change my life. They were ok, definitely interesting.

The following has little to do with 4(40)0, but it is about food. I had the fried pickles with My Lovely, it was our 3rd year anniversary and it made them great. Real love is when You + Lovely = A Great Time. That's all I'm saying. I could have had anything to eat, sometimes it's the company you keep.

I just came back from having Mexican with my best friend and I am tired. Tomorrow I will be home on my own, so food will be scarce. I always eat very little when its just me. My homie may be coming back tomorrow, which usually means wine.....

I'm tired! I passed Yoga For The People on St. Marks today. I didn't realize that they run on donations. There is a suggested donation of $10, but you drop it in a metal box. There isn't anyone there actually counting to make sure everyone drops in a $10. That is so zen-like!

I think I'm going to try hitting that place twice a week. I just need my unlimited year metrocard, NYC DOE can you heeeeeeaaaaarrrr meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?

I love me for losing, I'm on my way,


Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Day 23: Hmmmm


Usually the title of my blog has some tie in to the body of the blog, but today that is not the case. Honestly, tomorrow is the first day of school and I've been so busy today there is no time for creativity.

Thanks for being here. If you are reading this at nearly midnight, you either are one of those too cool for school parents who have it all figured out or you are child-free. Can I tell you child-free people, even if you don't have WILL BE AFFECTED TOMORROW and for the next nine months.

Planning is power.

Anyway! Today's weight was very dismal, I don't want to share.

Are you ok with that? Please be ok. If you must know, you can ask in the comments. I will answer. It was hurtful and I don't feel like writing the numbers and making them real. Denial, anyone?

Today I ate the following: yogurt, the last uber ripe banana, a wedge of Laughing Cow cheese, a serving of Wheat Thins, a can of sardines, 8oz ginger ale, two bbq'd chicken drumsticks, five onion rings, and a goblet of wine.

Now that I read it, I didn't eat that much.


I also see that I didn't eat any veggies. Can we count the onion rings? I really need to do some shopping.

I was actually presented with yet another pizza party, but I'd had my sardines, cheese and crackers, so I passed. I felt good. The pizza looked fabulous, but I'm pretty sure that today's dismal numbers were from yesterday's fabulous pizza and beer.

I still did not get on the No Joke. In lieu of that, I had to grab the WondaGirl and take her on some last minute shopping. We did a lot of walking, so I'm going to count that. I also did loads of housework today. If I really counted daily housework I would be able to claim some major calorie burning, but I'm way too sporadic.

Come to think of it, my workouts are sporadic too. Argh, moving right along.

Ah it is what it is.

My sweets...I have to bang out a few things before midnight, so I am going to let you go. Thank you for being here. I would like to talk to you about a few more things, but like I told you before, sleep deprivation does not do the body good.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way.


Monday, September 6, 2010

Day 22: Hustlin, Hustlin,


Here I am, blogging to you, well, well, are supposed to sing that. I'm singing it. It's midnight and I have to get to bed. Yesterday I went to a BBQ and I ate a whole lot.

It was funny because my plan was to eat just a little bit of everything. I did not plan to actually circulate the line more than once. That was my downfall. Its all good. It was the last BBQ of the season. Smooth sailing from here on in. The real ish is when I came home and decided that the day really went to hell.

The reason that line of thinking is bad is because you figure that you messed up, you might as well go hard. I went hard. I went hard at 10pm with an order of chicken wings and plaintains. I wasen't even that hungry. I just wanted it and had it.


Today I got up and I decided (once again) to get my ass into gear. I had some leftover coffee from yesterday and that was my breakfast smoothie inspiration.

1 whole ripe banana
1/2 cup coffee
1 cup 2%milk
1/2 cup oatmeal

BAM! Shakepalooza.

I went to help my friend Goodness paint her apartment. I had three beers, two slices of pizza, one gin and tonic and two shots of I don't know what.

At home I had a wonton egg drop soup, just the way I like it: heavy on the spice and scallions.

Now I am drinking all this water, in hope of washing out all the BBQ crap from yesterday. My plan was to get on the No Joke tomorrow at 5am, but as I look at the time, I realize that that will only leave me less than 5hrs to sleep.

No Bueno.

I will get up at 6:30 and hit the No Joke when I get home. tomorrow....yaaaa and was a great long weekend.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way.


Saturday, September 4, 2010

Day 20: What's heavier? My gut or this funk?


So today's weigh-in was 200 again. I did not even want to weigh-in. I put up the No Joke today, I will work out tomorrow morning.

Today's eating:
chocolate cheerios
turkey and muenster on a spinach wrap
multigrain spaghetti, sauce and turkey sausage
two bites of the mac and cheese that I made the kids
wine, easily a goblet

That is probably it. Its 9pm and I'm going to bed. I may have another glass of wine, but I doubt it.

I have so much on my mind. I am feeling like there is no one to talk to. This is a blog best for Lola Tuesday. I think I'll go over there now and just free proofreading, no spell check, just bang it out.

Then someone can teach me how to Dougie. Please don't.


Titanic is on, maybe it will clear this tear blockage.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way.


Friday, September 3, 2010

Day 19: Pulling Teeth


I'm sorry that I am the place where I don't feel like doing this. Blogging is great and therapeutic, but sometimes its lonely. Right now I am lonely. This is a funny kind of lonely-I'm happy to be by myself but I wish myself were a little more comforting. Does that even make sense? I'll never know, I guess.

So yesterday I was 199.5, and today 200. Yesterday I ate yogurt, sardines, 1/2 banana, wheat thins, seafood ravioli, corn bread, wine and pirate's booty.

Today I had one meal at Friday's: the Caribbean chicken sandwich with sweet potato fries. I had three Long Island Ice Teas. I also picked off my friends plates. I had a spring roll when I got home.

Yesterday I got my No Joke. Tomorrow or the next day I will set it up. My legs still hurt a bit from the canoe ride, so we will see.

There is no such thing as too much info, so you ought to know that part of my funk is due to my menstrual cycle.


I feel completely disengaged and uninterested in anything. This is not a new feeling, I've had it before. It may be new to you and I apologize.

The fact of the matter is everyone is entitled to a bad day and perhaps if the world wasn't so critical of individual FML days, we'd be happier.

I'm sorry, Friends. I really do like speaking to you, but I am speaking under a poor guise. I won't take up anymore of your time.

I'm just not here.

I am really sorry.

I will try to be more present next time. I love this blog and I don't want it to be forced.

Right now it is like pulling teeth.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way.


Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Day 17: How Lola Got Her Sea Legs (Not Back)



First the gritty...I am still or at least at this morning's weigh-in, 201.5. Yes I was very disappointed, but that was at 5:30am and I'm over it.

Today I went on a trust building retreat. It was great! It was my first one and though I was nervous; I really left happy. Unfortunately I was a little too hyped to think some of my words out, so I might have come off a little loopy. Damn. I don't think adrenaline is my thing.

Anyway..I'm still a little hyper, its 11pm and I'm hanging laundry, and whatnot, when I know damn well I should be asleep.

I could walk you through the trust building stuff but let's cut to the funny. I canoed today. That is a big deal for a number of reasons: the greatest being that I'm a chicken.

They asked us to line up in order of comfort and skill. I watch a lot of reality tv, so I raced to get at the end of the line, assuming that they would match me up with the beginning i.e. the expert. I was correct. I was matched up with a colleague who was a CERTIFIED LIFE GUARD AND SWIM INSTRUCTOR. OOOOOOWWWEEEE! The lighter person rides in the front and in this case that was me.

Knowing my weight and my height (TALL), you can imagine that she was an Amazon. It was great! My legs were all shaky but I felt so proud. She was a great leader and good at directing me. I never turned around to look her, see the bawk-bawk! At one point some genius started a game of tag. Trust me, you are no squirrel..its sounds nuts because it was.

My "safe" choice, to my surprise, was very, very competitive. Do you see where this is going?

The way the game is played, the ball gets tossed into a canoe, making that canoe "it". You've played tag before, so I'm not getting into it.

At one point we were fine because I kept distracted her with chitchat. This worked until someone tried to get the ball into our canoe and my partner decided to deflect the ball with her oar.

She did this without telling me.

She leaned over and the next thing I know

the canoe FLIPPED.

I say flipped because I ended up under it. Scary stuff.

Let me wrap this up...falling off a canoe while in the middle of a lake is funny. Getting back in said canoe while still in the middle of the lake is HYSTERICAL.
Getting back in said canoe while still in the middle of the lake AND enlisting four grown men is INNNNNNNNNNNSAAAAAAANNNNNE! (Crazy Eddie Style)

I'm laughing as I write this, but you should know that the AC is off and its 81 degrees you can imagine inside. I'm probably delirious.

Once your sides stop aching and you stop tearing, we will continue.


Back to business: Today I had a smoothie: 1/2 banana, 1/2 cup each of oatmeal, blueberries and pineapple, one cup of 2% milk, green tea extract and water. I didn't measure the water, I only needed to fill the cup. For lunch I had a soft chicken taco, a lil' bit of rice (prob 1/2 cup) and a couple of baked fries. Initially I took the rice until I saw the fries. I have not had dinner because I'm full and thekidsandihadicecreamconesvanillanosprinklesforme.


I'll be right back, I have to see if I can find my grocery receipt, since I have one known reader who actually is interested.

I will have to go on memory. The kids allegedly cleaned the kitchen and managed to toss it out. Yet they missed a straw wrapper.

I spent about $60. Most items were 3 for, 5 for...spinach wraps, lite yogurt, hummus, 2% milk, vegetarian eggs, microwave pizza (meat spectacular for them, veggie for me), lite wheat thins, turkey sausages, sliced deli turkey, provolone cheese, lite quik, lite pancake syrup, bagel thins (awesomeness), bananas, sardines, tuna fish, and coffee. I think that's it. Hell. I can't believe I remembered all of that. I used one coupon.

Holy Metabolife!!!!!!

It's almost midnight. I love that I forget that I've been up since 5:30 and that I need to be up at 6:30 tomorrow.

I could say more, but luckily we have tomorrow.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way.


Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Day 16: I Did Say Laugh Together, Right?


I am so sorry that I am not really in a laughing mood. I want to laugh. Trust me. First and foremost, 201.5. I am unhappy with the 201.5 but it is what it is. I knew that I didn't do my best on vacation. I had a great time, and I would not change a thing.

The good news is THAT THERE IS ALWAYS GOOD NEWS! That is not really what I was going for, but yeah. The actually good news in this case is I did not gain more than when I started this blog. At start of the blog, I do believe that I was 203.

So my dears, we keep plowing away.

Before I go on to the what I ate today; I want to express the importance of the 1/2 pound. You might think that I am going overboard in reporting a 1/2. Hell to the naw! That 1/2 can really make a difference. I'd prefer to lose more than a 1/2 for my next weigh in, but even losing the 1/2 will make me feel good. Straight talk, one could sleep off a 1/2 pound! I'm already winning here.

Here is a smidgen of feel good therapy. I am hungry. I am hungry and I don't feel like cooking. So I have been sitting here for the past hour trying to distract myself with Wife Swap. Sure I could have distracted myself with housework or even exercise. I just don't see the point in being physical when you are hungry. I want to go out and enjoy a meal, maybe a sandwich or something. I don't know. What I do know is I thought of you and how much I wanted to blog. Here I am! Here you are to save my day! I am still hungry, but you are taking the edge off. I am pretty certain that I will be able to make a better choice after blogging.

Here is what I ate today: breakfast buffet like yesterday, turkey bacon, itty corn muffin, itty whole wheat roll and the drink that I said I would not mention unless I didn't have it. For lunch I had leftovers from last night: couscous and red kidney beans. Couscous is a nice alternative to the tradition rice. It is also super easy to make, not even worth a formal recipe. Couscous = Water, boil the water with butter and seasoning, turn the burner off, quickly stir in the couscous, cover and walk away for 5+ minutes. Done. It is tastier if you cook it in a veggie broth. If you have ever made rice, you can do the couscous the same way, just remember that it is super fast to cook. Did you get the "="? As much as couscous with as much as liquid. One cup equals one it? Great.

A collegue offered me some yummy wasabi peas. They were spicy and crunchy. Very nice. I had an experience many years ago with wasabi peas. Long story short, they were gross. The peas that I had today were milder. The ones from years ago were so spicy that they made my eyes and nose run. Not cute.


When I returned from lunch a collegue was eating something very BAD FOR ME, BAD FOR YOU, BAD FOR WE, yet it looked so good. She offered me a taste and I had a little taste. I am ashamed to tell you even what it was. HEY, HERE'S THE GOOD NEWS....I know that I did something bad, even though it was just a taste. So to check myself before I wreck myself (further), I took only one bus home and walked the rest of the way. The walk was about 30min, 50min if you count the last 20min in the supermarket. It was a long, hot walk and I was sweating. To really teach myself, I did not have any water to drink. The message that I was trying to get across to myself is: that terrible thing that I indulged in was such a waste, I'd rather a huge glass of ice water.

Did it work? I don't know. Did I sweat? Hell yes. Was I thirsty? I'm still thirsty!

My methods may not be for everyone but this is how I work. Now I must go. I really am hungry. I wanted to add on another facet of this blog and that section will cover what I purchased at the supermarket. Too often I hear people complain that the reason they don't eat better is that healthy food is too expensive. I can assure you that that is untrue.

We will have to do that tomorrow, because I really need to have some dinner. I don't know what it will be...I'm thinking a veggie slice. (Yes, of pizza! That is a better choice than a burger).

I love me for losing, I'm on my way.


Monday, August 30, 2010

Day 15: Home, Hot and Tired


Ok, first of all, its nearly 1am. For anyone considering writing a blog, one of the problems is keeping up. Readers (that's you, friends) really get accustomed to a schedule and sometimes it gets to be much.

This is only a problem if people actually ENJOY the blog.

That being said, thank you for enjoying, thanking you for looking forward, thank you, Photog for shouting me out on FB. Yeah. You.

We left Florida on Saturday morning, we stopped for the night and ended up here Sunday evening. I bet you wish you know where "here" was...I know that you all know. Pardon me for wanting a little mystery.

I need to go through what I ate and this may be tricky. Friday evening we had a BBQ and I ate way to much ish.

Saturday, I woke up at the crack with a stronger resolve. This is what I ate: grits with cheese, a fish fillet (no bread), onion rings, wheat thins, tortilla chips, salsa, two beers and a glass of scotch. Of course I drank coffee. For now on, unless I say otherwise, I had coffee.

Sunday, we went to brunch. I had an AMAZING grilled tuna club and yuca fries. You must know that my tuna was medium rare, the sandwich was lovingly bedazzled with a curry slaw, arugula and tomato. Wowzer. If you are ever in DC, please visit Zest. You know what? I could be wrong about the name of the place-this was yesterday. What I am 100% spot on is you must try this sandwich or a variation of it. I will double check the restaurant and get back to you. I don't think I ate anything else on the road. When we got home I was mostly starved and I had shrimp chow fun.

There is no place in the United States that has better Chinese take-out than my city. Awwwww...its good to be home.

Today I was so fortunate to have a breakfast buffet at work. The secret to a breakfast buffet is simple, eat for both breakfast and lunch. Why? Hello!! This is meal where you are encouraged to eat as much as you want. In this case, the meal was free. A free buffet takes some of the pressure off because you didn't pay for it. Therefore the "shoot, I'd better get my money's worth" feeling is not there. In my case, I just wanted to get the most of the meal. I had a little corn muffin, a little roll, a teeny bit of eggs (my least fav on any buffet), a half slice of french toast and two strips of turkey bacon. It is worth my time to tell you that the roll and corn muffin were literally the size of a silver dollar and I had them after breakfast. I just managed to wander back to the buffet on my way to the bathroom. Heh!

This evening when I got in I had to toss together dinner on basically no groceries. Remember how I told you that I was trying to get rid of all the food in the house? Yeah...accomplished. Now I don't feel as accomplished as hungry. Today I made salmon patties (frozen from Costco's), couscous and beans.

It is what it is.

I have to go shopping soon because at this rate we will be eating grains and wishes. Soon I can put my children on the toothpick and mint diet.

Around 10pm, I had a bag of pirate's booty and at nearly 11pm I had a cheese stick. I could have done without the cheese. The thing is, I had just walked into the house and plopped down in front of the tv. Couch potatoing is where I do the bulk of my overeating.

Alright already, I'm tired. I can tell you that tomorrow there will be another breakfast buffet. I am going to make myself a smoothie for lunch and for dinner I will have the remainder of the couscous and beans.

Jeez..I won't be visiting my other blog tonight, I can barely keep my eyes open. Sidebar: lack of sleep is not good for weight loss. Whoa..I just read over what I wrote--I did not forget that I was going to weigh in once I got home. I honestly don't think its a good idea. I will weigh in tomorrow and let you know.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way!


Friday, August 27, 2010

Day 12: This is NOT Puberty, It's a Hella Short Blog


I know it is early in the day, I've barely had anything interesting to eat. I'm here for two reasons:

1. Here is the dip that I told you about---->Skordalia is a thick Greek sauce made by combining crushed garlic (lots of garlic) with a bulky base usually a pure of potatoes and bread and then beating in olive oil to make a smooth emulsion. I copied that from a website....I wish I could cut and paste my gut. Arrgh.

2. I am suffering from acne. I don't know what the hell is going on, but my Lovely suspects the lamb shank. I am not pleased. I hardly suffered from acne as a teen and now here I am, a mere 30 years from retirement with pimples on my chin. Ewwww. I am so not pleased.

I think my body is trying to tell me something. Something along the lines of, keep it up Fatty McFat Fat, eat another chip.


I hear you, Body. I hear you and I will heed your warning. At this rate I will have to start a new blog, specifically for my Body.

Today I had a toasted garlic bagel with chive cream cheese. Garlic is GREAT for your heart, or your circulation or something that definitely has to do with your heart. Truly I mean heart in the anatomical way, it is not good for your cutesy xoxoxo heart.

Case in point, the goodbye kiss from my Lovely today was hesitate and dry.

Another lesson learned.

For lunch I think I will have the Ally McB buffet: toothpicks and mints.

I will miss Florida very, very much. However, I am looking forward to getting back on track. It is going to be so hard not to leap onto my scale as soon as I get home, but I think I have to. After all, how else will I effectively document my miraculous comeback?

Let's schedule this. I'm not big on schedules; I don't even wear a watch. I have not scheduled ANYTHING this entire vacation, so I almost feel required to schedule.

Next weigh-in date and time: Monday, August 30@8pm.

Trust me when I tell you, weighing in at night is the worst possible time, but that is the earliest that I think I will be home. I would be lying to you if I told you that I was planning on waiting until Tuesday morning. My scale will be straight Edgar Allen Poe'ing my arse.

Its good that we are driving home. We will be eating like campers, handfuls of nuts and baggies of fruit. I'm looking forward to it.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way (you should hear how hard I just sucked my teeth)


Thursday, August 26, 2010

Day 11: Wade in the Water Children and Don't Forget the Veggie Burgers


I write this blog with a heavy heart because vacation is coming to an end. Thank you for reading anyway, and I will see you in the big NJ. If I lived in New Jersey, that is!

First things first, yesterday we went to the Sponge Docks. We did not have breakfast but we had our friend's famous coffee-free coffee and I managed to salvage a little lonely piece of brownie. By the time we got to the docks, we were pretty hungry. We went to a Greek diner and I had lamb over spaghetti. For appetizers we had kalamari (that's how the Greeks spell it, the HELL with you, spell check) and this uber garlicky dip. I don't remember what the garlicky dip was. I promise that I will find out and get back to you.

I'd love to tell you now, but I am on a Mac stealing some poor schmuck's signal and now is not the time for research.

On our way out, once we rescued ourselves from the jaws of the most talkative saleswoman ever...I will probably talk about her over at Lola Tuesday....we grabbed some baklava. Come to think of it, we picked up the baklava before the most talkative saleswoman ever, but...I'm going to let this go. I feel a ramble coming on.

We did not have dinner because lunch was so heavy, but I did have a piece of the baklava.

Today's eating for your reading pleasure:

Veggie frittata with cheese (that's omelet for the bourgeois) coffee, double veggie burgers with cheddar cheese and tomato, biggie fries with cheese from Wendy's, salmon, mashed potatoes, broccoli with cheese, and leftover lamb, coca-cola, gin and tonic, and oj.

As I read the day's eating, I can say this: I am pretty damned tired of fries and anything potato driven. Also, furthermore and so on, today was pretty cheesy. I will have to watch the cheese next time. I'm going back up the highlight the cheese, in case you don't see how over it was. Diablo, the only things that didn't include cheese were the beverages.

Monday Alert:

Monday will be a great day....since I will be getting my No Joke!!!!

This is GRRRREEEAAAT news because I can start to work out at home in front of the tv just like God intended. I make a lot of excuses when it comes to working out alone. I actually don't enjoy working out, but if I can get a buddy, I'm golden. At the gym, my favorite machine is the No Joke. I can work on that thing for an hour as long as I find something interesting to watch.

I'm not proud of my couch potato-ness but I am not scared to admit it. Right now I am drinking a huge glass of water. How exciting, right?

Sorry friends, but at this point, I'm sweating gin and blinking back the tonic, so I really have to detox.

Speaking of detox, while out here I came across a meal replacement shake that my Lovely and I are going to try. I won't give you too much info on the shake, I have to check with the vendor first. For all I know, this could be some top secret type thing. I never give away secrets.

Except my own and this is a great gateway to.....pssssst...something very, very, nice is going down in January...that's all you get for now. I can't spill the tea, throw the baby out with the bath water, and then cry over spilled milk.

If you've checked my FB prior to the writing of this, you know that I am exhausted. The beach is so, so, so relaxing.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way!


Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Day 09: With a Little Shout-Out to Day 08


Day 08 was not too shabby. For lunch I made my Lovely and I tuna cakes...yum-o!

Here ya go:

Preheat a pan with a little oil/cooking spray/butter whateva's clever.

2 cans of tuna in water, drained (ew, please don't skimp on the drain)
1 egg
Season to taste with whatever you like..I did some tomato basil dried onion thingie
Healthy amount of breadcrumbs (beware of seasoned if you are heavy handed with the season to taste part)

If you put the right amount of crumbs, 1/2 should be able to shape the tuna into patties.

Place them in the pan, you should be on medium flame. I don't think you need more instructions, you must know where this is going...cook them, ala burger style, browning each side to your liking.

They go good with everything, every meal. This recipe will yield eight. Mmmmm bonus yum-o points if you squeeze a little fresh lemon.

For dinner we went to Perkin's. Perkin's is a diner that bakes their own pastries.


We waited a while for dinner. So when we got to Perkin's, we were really hungry.


I chose the spicy mango glazed tilapia. It was served on top of herb rice with steamed asparagus and spinach on the side. Those are sides that I chose. Woot! Woot!

We all decided on two appetizers.


Mozzerella sticks and onion rings. Yeah I said it. Wait, let me clear my throat.



Dinner was fabulous. If you recall the DANGER warning prior, than you recall the dessert. How the heck are we to go to Perkin's and not patronize their desserts? Insulting. We were actually full, but we didn't want to insult our flustered waitress, Lesa, so we ordered two slices to go. Something with chocolate and something with bananas.

Chocolate is made from plants, which means it contains many of the health benefits of dark vegetables. These benefits are from flavonoids, which act as antioxidants. <---those two sentences, starting with the word "chocolate" came straight from Bananas are loaded with potassium. Good fer ya, kiddies.

After dinner, I played adult games with adult people and we ate the pie slices while we watched George Lopez and dozed off. The pie slices were filling, oh and so was that one brownie, but what really sent us to sleep were the Malibu and pineapple drinks. Correction: sent me to bed, not them. Night owls were a hoot. lol. See...laugh together.

This morning we had Dunkin Donuts. I had, because this blog is about ME, an everything bagel with cream cheese and an extra large coffee.

We didn't have lunch, unless you count the large fries we shared. That can't be considered lunch.

We are having dinner now. REAL LIFE RIGHT NOW! I am balancing on my lap, as I blog, tilapia, peas and brown rice. See? You didn't know I was a stunt blogger.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way!


Monday, August 23, 2010

Day 08: The Day Has Hardly Started


This blog should be Day 07 since Day 08 is barely started. Maybe I will revisit later. I'm not sure. I am going to try to remember what I ate yesterday. Bear with me, vacation is working me over.

Two scrambled eggs, mangu, coffee, juice, cheese, black bean soup, veggie sandwich, green tea lemonade, cheese nachos with jalapenos, sour patch kids, flounder, cheesy broccoli, hunk of crusty bread, Tom Collins, two beers, a brownie, chips and a cookie.

See why writing it down is useful? I must be honest with you all. Yesterday I had the opportunity to blog. I just was not ok with sharing everything that I ate. That is terrible on both counts. Its terrible that I did, its terrible that I didn't want to share.

I apologize. Thank you for being here. Really, you inspire me. I guess I am blogging so early in the day to inspire the rest of the day. So far, I've had scrambled eggs, one slice of toast and coffee. I could be having my first beer of the day and I could be washing down a brownie with it. Truly, I don't feel like either. I wouldn't mind a Tom Collins though. Oh brother.

I really rather use all my calories on drinking. Food is so overrated. I will tell you this. My body was not happy with my behavior yesterday. I went to bed at 3am with an extreme stomachache. I deserved it. Now, now, relax...I am not heading into self flogging behavior, but it is what it is. You want to wash down brownies with beer and jalapeno cheese nachos with gin? Go For It!!

Enough. So we didn't jog today. We slept at a friend's home and we are not going to jog in the pouring rain in our pajamas. Sorry Florida. I know y'all would have appreciated the eye smorgasbord.

It's noon time and I am going to be aware. I hate when I am eating something and during the feast realize that I'm not even hungry. Its like watching the first hour of a Lifetime movie, just to realize that you saw it before. You will never get that hour back. I feel full right now and I can ride this feeling all day. The problem is, I will get bored. Right now, anyone can inquire what's for lunch and I will have 99 ideas and a diet ain't one.


That my stomach shedding sweethearts is the laugh together part as promised.

Here is a little throwback dangerous thinking for you, since laughter is only effective if followed up by danger:


Whoa...think it, type it, think it, let it go.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way!


Saturday, August 21, 2010

Day 06: Beach, Babe and Snickers Ice Cream


Ok..can you tell by the title that I am not 100% on top of this 40 in 40 concept? Damn this wonderful vacation.

I told you that we would probably jog this morning. It didn't happen. Remember I told you that we were debating dinner? We decided on an Asian fusion, sushi and Chinese food. LOL! Our friend has a few titles. She is our friend, my webmaster, a blog follower and my advocate. I bet you want to know why. I bet I'm going to tell you.

Our friend has a handful of kids, so My Lovely stayed with the kids while we made a food run. First stop was the Chinese restaurant. We asked the woman behind the counter when they close and she looked at the time, rolled her eyes and deadpanned, "I have two hours". That right there should have been a warning of things to come.

You know, if you let me go on at this rate, I will break this story down to teeny tiny bits. On to the point!

At Publix, I slipped on some water by the sushi cold well and bust my booty. Yep. Never, not ever, nunca should you wear flip flops while trying to lose 40lbs but vacationing in Florida on a sushi run to the supermarket. That's how I roll. Learn from me. I was shocked because no one aside from our friend seemed concerned that I got up close and personal with the hard floor. The reason I call our friend my advocate is because she was so pissed that I fell and no one cared. She threw the sushi AT the well. Funny stuff.....

That is why we didn't run this morning. We could have, but we stayed at our friend's home extra long..between icing my jacked knee and whatnot. This morning there was no energy for jogging and once again, my knee was done.

I guess you want to know what I ate today. You can skip this part, but it really helps me to write things down. It makes me feel spot on.

Two scrambled eggs, naked toast, naked fish fillet with cheese, coffee and more coffee, orange juice, fresh potato chips (could of skipped, but I rationalized that I skipped the fries with my fish), a Snickers ice cream bar, salmon, veggies, whole wheat pasta and a beer. Right now I'm working on a Tom Collins. I will not lie to you or myself and tell you that this will be my sole drink. Vacation, people.

I could have skipped the Snickers ice cream bar, but I wanted ice cream and if I'm going hard, I'm going real hard.

Honestly guys, I don't know how I am doing. I know that I am eating considerably less than I ever have done on vacation. I am thinking about what I eat before I eat it, and I am trying to be more active. The sun is deceiving because it is making me feel fit, fine and fabulous. I am feeling voluptuous and va-va-voom. In New York I feel gritty and overweight. Here in Florida, no one seems concerned about their weight. We passed a family on the beach and the mom was like, Dad? Steak right? Dougie, Janie, Bill, Cindy, George? Steak, steak, steak, steak, steak good, right?

I was uber impressed. I felt like saying, me too, Mom! Steak, ok!

I'm going to take my drink and two-step to the pool to sit in the moonlight with my lady love.

We will talk tomorrow. Think of me, I think of you. I feel a little guilty, this blog isn't as long as it usually is, but take advantage. Once I'm home its back to War and Peace length.

We are going to try jogging on Monday.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way!


Friday, August 20, 2010

Day 05: A Road Trip and an Angus Burger


I'm blogging from sunny Florida. We last spoke on Tuesday. How is everybody? Good? Great! Not so good? Start from now...good feels oh so great.

If you are on my Facebook, you know that I've been traveling. If you aren't, now you know.

There are a few laws to vacationing:

1. Scales in other places are unreliable. I recall a time when I weighed myself in Boston and I was soooooo light. I got all besides myself and ate whatever I wanted. Why? I could afford it, I was a skinny bitch. The story changed when I got home. Ever since then, I don't trust outside scales. For that reason I cannot weigh myself for the next week and a bit. I'm sorry. I'm more afraid than sorry because this will be a real test, know why? This is a nice sedge way to the second law of vacationing...

2. Vacation food is so different from regular food. I know a wonderful newlywed couple honeymooning in Barcelona. All of their posts are about food. All you are supposed to do on vacation is eat and take pictures of eating. That leads me to another thought (this is proof that I think in order)...


This may not seem like a big deal, but I've been a pescatarian since April 23. A pescatarian does not eat meat or poultry. I did this in support of a family member but it turned into something more. It went from me being supportive to me being stubborn. Case in point, the family member started eating meat before me.

Ok, ok, I am vacationing and this is a blog of love because I'm a little distracted. Following is everything I've chowed on today. I'm not breaking it down into meals, because vacationing is not about order.

Two microwave pancakes, coffee, two angus sliders, french fries (I could have skipped), more coffee, one beer and now a glass of Malibu rum.

My Lovely is feeding me ketchup flavored potato chips. I also had a lemonade sample and broccoli in cheese sample at Sam's Club. You MUST eat every free thing in Sam's Club. Don't test me.

We have not had dinner yet. I am at a friend's house and they are debating dinner.

There is more to talk about but, really vacation...oh sugar! I of my reader's wanted to know about the angus sliders. Well, they were great. I should have had a real sized burger, it could have still been mooing. Oh, you didn't know about my raw meat obsession? Please don't leave me.

I will be back tomorrow. I think we are going jogging in the morning. That depends on the evening. Its not looking so good.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way!


Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Day 02: Eggplant Could Be The Enemy


I'll let you know that since yesterday I am have been under attack. Unfortunately, its the curse of the nice guy. We don't want to finish last, its just that the bastids are always stepping on our necks and thwarting our progress. This is for my other blog. Out, out, out, damn spot...........

Today I woke up and hopped on my faithful friend and lo and behold:


Da da duuuuuuuuuummmmmmmm

Yes that is great news, but this yo-yo dieter knows that that means nothing. Sure, its a considerable amount less than yesterday's 203, but the body flucuates like that. Yes. Sucks to be human, but at least we got..we got..yeah, I'll get back to that.

So for breakfast, I decided on eggs and avocado. I am really have to move the perishables and sue me, I didn't feel like a smoothie. I used two eggs and 1/2 of an avocado (you know me and the 1/2). I topped it with one slice of muenster cheese. Eggs are so lonely without cheese. By the way, I don't eat eggs enough to dignify only eating the whites. If God wanted us to only consume the whites, than I guess there would be a chicken who only produced whites...or at least science would have figured that out. They are genetically jacking everything else up, why not a chicken? (This is so not for this blog, I apologize)

The breakfast looked great but the avocado was not ripe. I thought it was ripe. I was so wrong. I don't know that there is anything edible in the world as bitter as an unripe avocado. OMG. I love avocadoes, but after today, I feel different.

I ate as much as I could because I am too cheap to toss out food. (Yet another yo-yo dieter's dilemna) After a while I had to pick out the bitter-cado. You know food is super bitter if the after taste is even more bitter than the during(?)taste. Ew. I had to quickly swallow a cup of V8 Splash, which didn't work...leading me to scarf down a blueberry waffle.

See how overeating can happen to good people?

Later on I had an apple and four crackers.

I went to a diner for lunch because I WAS UPSET (STILL AM). I turned to food. I know my problem, I can validate it. I chose eggplant parm with spaghetti. Hold on. Before you jump on me, I had a choice: eggplant parm with spaghetti or an eggplant parm hero. What the hell? The waiter was not interested in watching me google calorie counts. As soon as the food came (by the way there was a little bowl of lentil soup) I had the waiter wrap up all the spaghetti and a portion of the eggplant. I pulled off excess cheese and tossed it on top of the spaghetti. This left me with a nice meal that didn't break me.

See this worked, because I was able to bring the food home for dinner. Not my dinner-as I shared on Facebook, their dinner. I will be having mint toothpicks for dinner.

Fast forward to now and I am not hungry, so I don't even need a mint toothpick. The minute I feel hungry I will go to bed. I don't want to have to eat so late.

Ugh I was so annoyed today that I forgot to cut and paste my closing. See how life tries to get you?

I love me for losing. (That sounds right)


Monday, August 16, 2010

Day 01: Say Word Fatsy Cline?


Thank you for returning. If this is your first time here, thank you for coming.

So I hopped on the scale this morning and I was/am (who knows) 203lbs. Yes. Ok. So to my credit, this is the type of number that would lead me to stand outside the CVS with a fistful of dollars and a mind full of dreams. I don't even know how I can swallow for fear of gaining more. However, I told you that writing heals me. Instead of racing to the gym to beg their forgiveness, I just took a deep breath and thought about blogging.

I knew that I would be here soon filling you in and I knew that you would be waiting. I don't know if you were, but I have to tell myself that.

It took me a while to get to breakfast because I was pretty upset. I didn't have an appetite. While that should be a blessing, breakfast is not one of those meals that you want to skip. Actually you should not skip any of them, but breakfast is the king of all meals.

I made a smoothie. I didn't know the calorie count for everything, so I used my 1/2 cup rule. Nothing aside from maybe sugar or salt in a half cup is bad for you.

1/2 cup of the following:
dry oatmeal
frozen strawberries
fresh cut pineapple
frozen blue berries
vanilla soy
V8 splash

a handful of green pea shoots
two squirts of green tea extract

The green tea extract is a really expensive little bottle of something green. The only reason I have it is because Dr. Oz said so. I tend to believe everything he says. From this point on, if I use some idea of his, it will be known as WWDOD. I used the green pea shoots because I feel a smoothie is incomplete without some green leafy addition. I prefer baby spinach, but I don't have any on hand.

For lunch I had a salmon burger with sauteed onions and green peas, yes a 1/2 cup. I am disorganized, but when I create a rule, I follow it.

I had a bag of pirate's booty for a snack.

For dinner I am going to have sweet potato soup. The sweet potatoes are boiling now. It will only take me a sec to make the soup, because my Magic Bullet is ridiculous like that. The cool thing about the soup is I can freeze leftovers for later.

You can pretty much freeze anything for later. I would not freeze meat, fish or poultry. It just seems gross. I don't eat meat and poultry (anymore) so that eliminates that little debate. As far as fish, its so delicious, I NEVER have leftovers.

If you are wondering about the soup, here it goes:
Two boiled sweet potatoes, peeled and tossed in the bullet with the following:
1/2 cup of water
1/2 vanilla soy
1/2 V8 splash
salt and pepper to taste
little pinch of nutmeg

Blend and drink.

I'm probably going to toss in some pea shoots, seeing as I need to use them up.

I'm trying very hard to keep a food log. The problem with that is that I am so dang disorganized, I always lose the log. Right now I am using a little pad that my mom gave me. She is a HUGE FAN of the $0.99 store, so if I lose this I won't freak. In the past, I've bought actual notebooks, pretty ones...but like I said, I lose them. I think what I need is a damn trapper keeper that I would strap to my back...but I'd probably lose that too. Stay tuned for the fate of the little log. This time Friday I will be reading off a ragged sticky note.

This part of the blog is for mental health:
I received an email today that sent me to pissivity (s/o to DA) level 10. My first thought was to go out and get a veggie pizza and a bottle of ciroc, and enjoy a weepy eat&drinkathon. I thought about blogging tonight and realized that that is not something that I would have been proud to share-at least on the first day.

I'm not saying that you won't ever read something terrible, but I am saying that thinking of you reading will always inspire me to think long and hard about my actions. I promise to never lie to you. In actuality, this is a real case of lying to you, would be lying to me.

I intend on succeeding. Thank you for your support.

I love me for losing, I'm on my way!


Sunday, August 15, 2010

Day 00: We Start Tomorrow


Welcome to 40 in 40: Laugh Together, Lose Together

I honestly don't know where to start. The beginning comes to mind, but where is the beginning of obesity? Well that was dark and dismal. This blog is not about being dark and dismal. Sometimes it will happen, however, it is not the goal. If you read something particularly dismal, feel free to let me know.

A little about me: I'd be way happier if I were 40lbs lighter...more about me, I am a blogger. I love to write. Writing frees me. This blog is to free me of these 40lbs that are having a torrid love affair with my body. Just so you know, this torrid love affair is nothing new. I've always fought with my weight. Sometimes I win the fight, but usually with not-so-good-techniques. I have done pretty much everything to lose this weight.

I want to take everything that I know about weight loss and customize (cheat when I feel like it) to my needs. I want to tell you that I am not a doctor and if you want real advice, see one. I'm here without a Dr., but with a OMG I'M HUGE degree from the School of WTF??

Currently I am 200lbs. That is a whole lot. Right before my son was conceived, I was 199lbs. I thought that was great, because at the time I was trying to lose anyway. Fast forward to thirteen years later, there is nothing great about 200lbs. I managed with the "help" of diet pills (that are currently off the market, because people abused them to DEATH, thanks..) to get all the way down to 158lbs. NO BUENO. I really looked ill. I am very comfy in the 165-175 zone.

40 in 40: 40lbs in 40 days!

I wish.

40 in 40: 40lbs in 40 weeks!

Yep, that's the deal. Come visit, if nothing else, you will laugh. I know I will be laughing.

Trust me, there will be days when you may check me out and feel worried about me. DON'T!!! I am an old hand at this, 34 years old to be exact.

Tomorrow is the start, because if you've EVER dieted, you know that diets start on Monday.

My goal is to stay under 1200 calories a day.

Wish me luck!

I love me for losing, I'm on my way!